I have been resisting the urge to learn more about the details. That means not looking at her email or computer.
Today I was doing something and ran across an address book of hers that had then name of a man in it that I knew she had been involved with. My heart sank. The pain came rushing back and my mind started racing again.
It’s nothing I didn’t know before, but the hurt felt fresh. My mind started racing about everything again. My stomach has been in knots all day.
I wish I could make the feeling go away, but I can’t. I feel stuck and unable to move forward.
This sucks!
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February 10, 2009 at 9:38 pm
Willow
I love your blog so far. You are very in touch with your feelings.
I take my response comment to you back on my blog. What you are describing here is a flashback. All of the feelings, emotions and physical sensations came rushing back to you just like when you first found out.
Your earlier post speaks of how little there is for men with sex addict wives. I agree. There is a lack of info for just the partner’s of sex addicts alone and far worse for men in particular.
Check out recoverynation.com and see if it is helpful to you and/or your wife. It has online workshops for the addict and the spouse. After you complete that there is one for couples. It’s very in depth.